disappointed day

what a disappointed day today..i was search how teknik procedure..i search in kementerian pelajaran malaysia website..n i was read all of the data how to register for teknik...unfortunately..it's too late..i should register in 3 october until 26 november..but now..15 december..how stupid i'm..actually i don't want to move from smklk..but when my mother n my uncle told me.. that i should get in for teknik school..but they were tell me in december..how came..i don't even know about all of this..i never feel that i want to move from the school..it never come to my mind..urghh..when my mother was talk to me nicely..i feel so touching..tak kisah la..ibu punya pasal masuk jela teknik even i have to left all my beloved friends..but now..i feel soooo upset when i'm not fulfill my mum's request ..how upset i'm..what should i do now..suicide???????panjat bagunan wangsa walk n terjun?????minum air batery??????i don't know what to do now..i have no mood now..i hope i can get in for teknik school..i wanna fulfill my mum's request..like erik..if u not fulfill his request..u gonna get a trouble n disaster gonna occur..but when i'm not fulfill my mum's request..i feel so bedosa n i'm already become..anak derhaka..:'(